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she taught me how to live
she taught me how to love
she taught me how to breath
but she never taught me how to forget...

Were not the same

Wow, its been awhile since I've updated my blog, but so much as happen in the span of 2 weeks. I just went through the worst possible feeling anyone could ever feel. Emotionally I broke down, Felt sick (the works) everything was going wrong, Didn't know what to do, So..i did what any "regular" person would do, i went to seek medical help. I hate waiting rooms, they smell, and people stare. My doctor was nice, she knew what exactly what i was feeling, like if it had happened to her before. The point is that she made me feel comfortable and told me not to worry, just to wait for the blood work. she ended up prescribing anti-depressants to me. that was weird. I didn't know what to think... i was telling myself ( am i depressed) but i didn't know "I'm not a doctor". i was feeling so many different things at that moment, My mind was going crazy, i needed rest. Time off from everything. Crawled into my bed, and didn't come out til the following day. Friends started calling me, and wondering what was wrong with me, didn't know what to say. Eventually i started feeling better overall, about myself, and how my life is going so far.

til the next post....

-MAN-


P.S.

I Will start posting "wolf" as soon as I'm mentally stable to handle it. ha

-Wolf is about being an animal, partying hard, not caring what other people think.

Duck Sauce – Anyway

Kryptonite

Have you ever felt lonely in this world? Even though you're surrounded by many great friends & family.
Have you ever stared into space and just felt completely empty? I do things sometimes to better myself, but in some cases to forget things. When i say "things", i mean people. People that just need to be forgotten, Everyone
needs closure. What if you can't get closure? you say. well then that's when you make your mind just take over your heart, make yourself believe everything will be okay. There is consequences by doing that though, It changes a person, It makes you think differently than before, You become Human.


-MAN-




“Rise from the Shadows”

Something Different

its 2010 now, time for new beginnings, new friends, new girlfriend (hopefully), we'll just see what life has in store for me, times are hard right now, money is tight, but life is not so bad right now, not sad as much, feeling much better, can't wait to go to school, BTW i started writing on this because i like the idea of writing my thoughts, great way to remember things.
realizing more things about life, the world is a weird place. everyday i feel like I'm getting to know more things, have to keep educating myself, for the real world. I can't remember the last time i had a great conversation with a female (you get those every so often) everyone i meet, are so into themselves, it gets annoying. but then again who am i to talk, i was the same not so long ago. That probably explains the reason why I'm single haha. i just want to say something about 2009, You were great in the beginning but things always come to an end, just like relationships.

-MAN-

Night Time (What Kind of Breeze Do You Blow Extended Edit)